King of the World

[P-U/H-Turks]-EDITED.

Mon, 12 May 2008 11:31:39 GMT

Edit: I'll be staying in a hotel, at least for the remainder of today. Anybody questioning me will be shot on sight.

My apologies for the short notice, but I'm not coming in to work today. I've decided that I'm terribly sore from being hunched over my desk all last week and I just want to take a day off to let my body relax and heal. From the pain.

Rude, if you want me to go somewhere else for the day... I will. Even if it's just collapsing in a hotel room for a few hours. In fact, maybe that would be better. *GLARE*

~~Strikeout viewable only to Rude. And I'm sure it's easy to tell he's lying.~~

[P-U/H]

Sun, 11 May 2008 19:49:38 GMT

The rally last night was a complete success. I think we got enough people behind us for the protest. I must get with Naoji-san about organizing it and to hear his thoughts on the rally. When next I see Vincent, I'll have him check out this 'Atsuro.' I can't imagine a man in the music industry would have it in for us, but I'd like to be safe. Lives are at stake. If it works out, I'll be glad to have somebody with the music industry behind him. Naoji-san certainly thinks it a good idea.

As to the events after the rally... I'm going to kill Reno. Just kill him. 'Brother' or not, he's dead when next I'm capable of moving. That probably won't be for awhile. I don't appreciate having his affections forced on me, or him throwing my worst fears in my face.

And I certainly don't appreciate Rude echoing them. I'm pretty angry at both of them still, but I can't really move to get away from Rude after last night. I tried to go back to the Shinra building and it resulted in the angriest, roughest sex I've ever had. Now I'm confined to bed and doubting whether or not I'll be able to go in tomorrow.

Okay, I'm probably not going in tomorrow. I'm really sore. Heh, but I got Rude back for it. He's got huge scratches on his arms/shoulders/back from me. Serves him right, I guess. ~~But that was hot, if painful.~~ No. I'm not going in tomorrow. I'm just going to lay in bed and wince every time I move, unless Rude decides to throw me out of the apartment while he's gone. I haven't been here alone, and I don't think he'd appreciate other people being here. Should probably talk to him about it, but I'm not sure I want to talk to him.

On the other hand, I could avoid the conversation and go in tomorrow anyway, despite the pain I'm in. I'll definitely be calling to check on Basch tomorrow night though. Balthier's leaving, I want to make sure he's not lonely.

Decisions, decisions, decisions... well, I have until tomorrow morning to figure it out.

[P-U/H]

Sat, 10 May 2008 05:54:53 GMT

Well, the rally is tomorrow night. I'm nervous about it, but I'm glad everybody met Naoji today. It should make things a little easier for tomorrow. Still... I'm still pretty nervous about being in a place full of music and loud noise again, and I can't fall asleep against the 'what-ifs' dancing around in my head.

I will not give voice to them.

I will not give them that power.

I just wish I'd gotten a chance to talk to Reno about it this week, but I think he's avoiding me since Rude and I came out to him. *sigh* I hope this doesn't all become a problem.

Back to trying to calm my mind from thoughts of the worst tomorrow and these threats I keep getting. Lolcats seem to be the obvious distraction. At least I don't worry about them getting hurt every time I look at them.

Last night was interesting. [Friends/family only.]

Thu, 08 May 2008 18:36:12 GMT

I went over to Yukari-san's for awhile after work because I was bored and Rude was still working. We talked about everything under the sun I think and had a lot of champagne.

That's really all I remember. Sorry if I did anything horrendously stupid last night, Rude, Yukari-san, Sephiroth. ~~I'm generally an idiot when drunk. ._.~~ I have a feeling though that I just sort of passed out when I got to Rude's. ~~My ass doesn't hurt today.~~

[P-U/H-Turks]
...And my inbox is spammed with HATE. It's pretty amazing, the amount of hate mail I got when I checked this morning. There's over 500 messages. Thought somebody might want to take a look, but I'm unsure who you have looking into these things.
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Today's been good so far though. I have a couple meetings later I don't want to have ~~hate these people, ugh~~ with a hangover, but I'll live.

~~Strikeout not viewable.~~

....

Wed, 07 May 2008 22:53:10 GMT

...I'm... really bored. .____. And I have no idea how to rectify this. Some help? Or... some work?

Edit: Problem solved. I'm going to Yukari-san's for awhile. Call me if you need me.

[NVPB--or anybody who would hold it over him. U-H]
...or my violin or my piano? I used to play all the time when I was bored but thanks to that stupid ban and thin apartment walls I can't. I miss playing, miss how relaxing it was. Stupid law.
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(ooc: In other words, anybody want to RP something with my poor little muse, even if it's just a conversation over AIM? I'm bored out of my freaking skull.)

YAY! {Viewable only to those who know about the relationship.}

Mon, 05 May 2008 04:00:14 GMT

Tonight Rude and I went to Reno's apartment and reclaimed Dark Nation. ♥ She's currently exploring the apartment, but every couple minutes she keeps coming back to me. I don't know if it's to make sure I'm still there or because she's just being her usual attention-whore self, but it makes me glad. I feel like I was missed, despite how much she loves her 'daddy.' ~~Reno and I sort of raised her and Bowser together. Reno's 'daddy' and I'm 'papa' and the cats know it.~~

Ah, it's so good to have my cat back. I made dinner tonight too, and that was relaxing. I love cooking and should be allowed to do it more often.

.__. I ah... have concerns about whether or not Rude and Dark Nation will get along, of course. I sense some mild competition between the two. It makes me feel more special, of course, but really, it's not like she can give me all of the attention I need. She's already done the 'this is my lap, other human, and if you touch it I'll kill you' thing.

We told Reno tonight. I'm glad he seemed to take it well. I was worried.

Anyway... going to go pester Rude. He seems to be under the odd impression that he's going to bed early. >3

P.S. Reno, what the hell did you feed my cat?! If feels like she's been eating bricks!

Hn. This is really accurate.

Sun, 04 May 2008 17:37:48 GMT

Your Personality Is Like Cocaine

You're dynamic, brilliant, and alluring to those who don't know you.

Hyper and full of energy, you're usually the last one to leave a party.

Sometimes your sharp mind gets the better of you... you're a bit paranoid!

At your best: You're confident, euphoric, and feel like you're on top of the world.

What people like about being around you: You're intense and overpowering.

What people dislike about being around you: You can be arrogant... and a bit of a jerk.

How addicted people get to you: Incredibly addictive. And hanging around with you isn't cheap!

What Drug Is Your Personality Like?

Here's an idea.

Wed, 30 Apr 2008 21:51:06 GMT

[Private to Turks, in English.]

Okay, I'm fucking sick of this. >O You're both going to apologize to each other in front of everybody. Then you're going to work together until you either kill each other and rid us all of the headache your stupid little spat has caused, or you learn to just cope with each other and be professionals at work.

From now on there will be:

1.) No name-calling.
2.) No insulting.
3.) No being hypocritical.
4.) No stupidity.
5.) No arguing.
6.) No unprofessional attitudes.

I can not deal with the stress and it's not helping anybody handle the extra workload that having Sephiroth gone causes. We're all stressed out. We're all tired and busy.

Vincent, you know what you did wrong. Kanda, stop egging him on with the name-calling and such. You're both being absolute dumbasses about this whole thing so knock it off or you'll both be stuck together. You're both being petty and stupid. You're both wrong. Get. The. Fuck. Over it or when Sephiroth comes back I'll let him do with you both as he pleases. I'll make you spar with him one on one.

But god, neither of you are helping anybody. You're not doing anything but stressing everybody else out! >O

In other words: Let it go now or I let you both go, which, I assure you, I have no desire to do.
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The next person to piss me off today is getting the ass-kicking of a lifetime. I'd better not hear about anymore bullshit because now I'm really stressed out again >OOOOO. [/English]

(ooc: Sorry, I feel like I'm spamming up your friends list by updating more for him than I do for me. .___. But he's had enough. Rufus-muse is made enough that he came down off his lovey-dovey high, which pissed him off, that he cursed.)

Hmmm. These 'meme' things are catchy.

Wed, 30 Apr 2008 09:12:27 GMT

Dear Reno,

I don't really know how to tell you this, but the mafia wants you. I think I realized it when your dog ran amok at the mental hospital, and I saw you put leeches on my avocado plant. I'm sure you're scarred enough to understand that there is no solution to this. I'm returning your ring to you, but I'll keep your mom as a memory. ~~It's only fair.~~ You should also know that I always will remember to hate the Boston Celtics.

Greetings to your frog Leonard,
~Rufus ♥

The meme:

Dear (the person who last commented on your journal),

I don't really know how to tell you this, but (1). I think I realized it (2) (3), and I saw you (4) (5). I'm sure you're (6) enough to understand (7). I'm returning (8) to you, but I'll keep (9) as a memory. You should also know that I (10) (11).

(12),
-your name- ♥ (or &-hearts-; without the dashes)

1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister

2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kebab - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
Other - With George Bush and his wife

4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit at
Other - Drive out

5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My pen pal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - High
House - Scarred
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
Other - Ashamed

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this.
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks

8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service

9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbor Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David's tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college

10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked

11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an Eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics

12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - Fuck off now
France - In pain
Other - Greetings to your freaky family

Why am I so awake at five am? By all rights, I should be exhausted! ~~Rude, you didn't do your job right last night. ;_; I can still move.~~

Edit!: [Private to Basch-definitely not hackable]
Basch, I need to talk to you again when you have a moment. It doesn't much matter when, I know you're really busy the next couple weeks, so I'll wait until Balthier leaves if I must. I just need somebody to talk to about... about something that happened on Saturday that I don't understand.

So... whenever, please let me know.
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[ooc: strikeout not viewable, except maybe to Rude.]

Hey, Reno, look what I found!

Tue, 29 Apr 2008 18:47:51 GMT

I miss my cat a lot ~~I hope you're treating her right, Reno.~~ and so I was looking at pictures of cats on the internet to assuage my need for kitten cuddles when I came across this:

Somebody ....'macro'd?'... a picture of Dark Nation (on the left) and Bowser (Reno's cat). ._.

Yes, they're pretty big cats, but we love them. I miss them, though having both of them on you at once can be pretty terrible for your lungs. Between them both they weigh a good 30 pounds (13.6 kg, for those of you who don't know American measurements). I think Bowser's the heavier of the two though.

Hn. I actually have nothing to do until my next appointment in an hour. This is a rare occasion. Perhaps I'll celebrate with Chuzzle. ~~Or more of these 'lolcats.' They're quite interesting.~~

Edited about ten minutes later: ...Okay. Somebody give me something to do or I'm going to start wandering around inspecting the building. ._. I can't deal with the boredom.

(ooc: These aren't actually our (Reno-mun's and mine) cats. >_> Rufus-mun has a lolcat addiction and found them on ICHC. Our much, much cuter babies can be found at these links: Kakei and Saiga on Reno-mun's shoulder.)

Sigh... {supposed to be private but hackable by oh... Rude, Naoji, Kanda and Dante only}

Fri, 25 Apr 2008 09:40:02 GMT

Nerves are keeping me awake tonight. It's 5:30 already. I hope Rude doesn't catch me up. I'm supposed to be calm and cool at all times, but I can't help but be nervous about tomorrow afternoon.

It doesn't matter how right things feel, I still worry for their reactions and opinions. Basch especially. I like to think that he's my real father. The man practically raised me and he was the first to ever say they love me. Heh. He was my first crush too. His opinion is very important to me, though I wouldn't leave Rude even if he disagreed. I would be upset, certainly, but I hope he will enjoy my happiness. I'm excited to tell him, especially after last night, which was amazing.

Sephiroth... I'm less than excited about. The man is certainly unpredictable at times. I hope that he'll be glad it's Rude instead of Reno or Dante or something, but I know he'll be upset that somebody is touching me. It's sort of endearing, really, the way he does that. Sephiroth is protective in his own way.

Vincent will be happy. He's already happy I'm happy and there's no doubt in my mind that he won't have many objections. I'm happy for his happiness too, though I'd like to know who he's dating.

There are other people that I'm less thrilled with telling, and I'm sure they'll share the same concerns I expect Sephiroth to bring up. At least I'm in a relationship with somebody who doesn't need protecting. That much is a lot off my mind. I trust Rude to take care of himself and watch over me because he can and I know he'll do so without complaint or minding. He's so wonderful--no. I will not squeal like a little girl about this!

We've decided to tell everybody else separately to try and keep it quiet. I don't want this spreading out of the building or any further than the Turks and my other close friends. Nobody who needs to know should, just like with the other thing.

Having Rude involved makes me worry about that a lot less. I am glad to have him close to me at all times. It's the safest I've felt in years.

Okay. Time to try to sneak back into bed without waking him up. At least it's the weekend soon--I have a feeling I'm not going anywhere until the usual Sunday evening meeting.

I don't have time to be original.

Wed, 23 Apr 2008 20:27:24 GMT

Nero-kun did this so I kind of decided to steal it. Have fun ~~but watch what you say. Especially you, Reno. You're dead.~~.

- I _____ Rufus.
- Rufus is _____.
- Rufus likes to ______.
- I want to _____ Rufus.
- Rufus can ______.
- Someday Rufus will ______.
- Rufus reminds me of ______.
- Without Rufus, it will be _____.
- Right now, I bet Rufus is thinking about _____.
- Rufus makes me want to _______.
- If I could spend the day with Rufus, I'd _____.
- Rufus is made of _______.
- If I could be Rufus for a day, I'd ______.
- Rufus's alter-ego is __________.
- I want to give Rufus ______.

What the hell is going on?

Tue, 22 Apr 2008 22:38:06 GMT

...Everybody's acting weird around me today. I don't see what the big deal is. It's just a smile. It's not going to jump off my face and devour you whole!!! ~~You said they'd be happy to see me smile! D:~~ I even came in late today ~~technically on time, since I usually come in early~~.

When I came in at nine, perfectly happy for once, my secretary looked at me like I had a rabid weasel on my face and asked if I was okay. First she complains about me being sick and stressed out, and then when I feel better she freaks because I'm happy? She's not the only one either. I've been getting weird looks all day!

What the hell is wrong with you people?!? Make up your minds!!! Either you want to see me happy or you don't. Which is it? Decide so I can either agree with you or laugh at you and ignore your opinions.

I'm going back to my paperwork now, but I'd like for everyone to cease the barrage of emails asking if I died/got laid/whatever. Quite frankly, what happened is nobody's business but mine and if I want you to know, you'll know.

Bugger off before you ruin my day.

And why are all the women giggling behind my back?

Oh. I'm only going to be here for another half-hour to an hour longer. If anybody needs to talk to me about something before I leave for the day, now's the time.

An apology. (Edited)

Mon, 21 Apr 2008 21:07:04 GMT

I realize it's pretty unusual for me to just vanish like that, but I'm taking today off to think and to sleep. ~~In a bed, no less.~~ I need it very, very badly. My apologies for any inconvenience or worry I have caused through my actions. Kanda... sorry. This afternoon completely slipped my mind for what I assure you are perfectly good reasons.

Forth-coming explanation is plausible.

But don't get all your hopes up.

{Private-unhackable}

Oh. My. God. Last night was... interesting to say the least.

I want to do that over and over again until I drop. Rude is absolutely amazing. I'm so boneless and sated right now. Nobody's ever done that for me. Waking up in his arms was so nice and... the sex... all day.

I have a feeling that I'll be smiling through the pain every time I try to sit down tomorrow.

{/Private}

Lovely.

Wed, 16 Apr 2008 18:18:34 GMT

We've been back from Europe since yesterday, and we were supposed to go back tomorrow, but... I'm dead. I believe I managed to catch some mild version of the flu while I was there. That's going to make it a bit difficult to concentrate on work. At least my medicine is helping some.

Well, off to meetings now. If I snap at anybody I apologize--being sick makes me a grump.

(ooc: *inflicts own pain on Rufus for self-amusement*)

Sometimes I hate my job.

Sun, 06 Apr 2008 20:39:00 GMT

I'm being called out of town tomorrow for an emergency business meeting. Sephiroth has agreed to come with me. Basch is forbidden to come.

Would any other Turks like to come? ~~We're going to France and then to close on a purchase in Italy.~~ If you do, make yourself present at the staff meeting tonight.

~Edit viewable only to Turks and Friends~

A... a beautiful woman just asked me on a date!!! *//////* She's really, really pretty and she's new here and now I don't want to go to Paris. ;_; Maybe my dry spell is over?

/friends only

Y'know...

Tue, 01 Apr 2008 06:47:23 GMT

...I really think that I will never, ever understand women.

They go out of their way to make it impossible.

I think I'm swearing off women for awhile. I just don't get them. ~~Which sucks, because I need to get laid.~~

What the hell just happened?

Mon, 31 Mar 2008 09:17:47 GMT

And here I thought getting Balthier AIM-drunk would be a good idea.

I have no idea how that went to hell.

~~Actually, I know exactly how it happened but I'm going to say we should all blame Vossler. After er... at least... 12? Maybe? cups of coffee, I feel I can safely declare immunity.~~

Edit: I hate this couch. It's not good for trying to sleep on.

I hate being sick.

Wed, 26 Mar 2008 05:24:38 GMT

I'm finally over the cold though. It had me bed-ridden for a bit. That was certainly not enjoyable. But now I'm better and tomorrow I have a dinner meeting with a man who will hopefully be doing most of our advertising from now on. Hopefully everything will go well.

My karma must be really screwed up from yesterday.

Mon, 17 Mar 2008 18:04:54 GMT

Now I can't stop sneezing/coughing/dying.

Thanks, Albel.

And I get to be drugged all through meetings today. Wonderful.

Not viewable to Tseng or Aerith.

Sun, 16 Mar 2008 16:08:06 GMT

Clearly, I am an idiot.

There is no other possible explanation.

Goddammit!

And no! I do not fucking want to talk about it!

Sometimes I get this uneasy feeling that I'm not perfect.

Sat, 15 Mar 2008 08:52:14 GMT

Today was incredibly odd. It started off weird and just got stranger from there. And now I'm out of bed again, wondering why I was so stupid as to do what I did. I'm going to be exhausted today, that for sure.

I just wish I could get the memory out of my head. Or recall it without blushing.

I suppose I should take this as proof that I'm still a young man and be glad but I can't help but feel like I screwed up terribly.

I'm going to stop babbling now and go ahead and shower for work so I can have my morning coffee. I have to get up soon anyway.

Coffee will make everything better. Yesterday will finally make sense if I can just brew a good cup of coffee.

Except that I just realized it's Saturday. I don't have to work.

That kiss really messed with my head.

{Viewable only to Vincent, Basch, and Kanda}

Wed, 12 Mar 2008 21:35:03 GMT

{Further encrypted}

I need to have a word with the three of you sometime in the immediate future. It won't be long. Get back to me with dates and times you are available over the next four days and keep it quiet.

Home sweet home.

Sun, 09 Mar 2008 22:47:10 GMT

Sort of. I'm at Reno's place at the moment. I forced him to clean it up and he got mad at me. >>; Well, that's what happens when you have socks in the kitchen sink.

Things aren't too bad. It's nice to be staying with somebody my own age, rather than old men who go to bed ridiculously early and don't talk about anything but their boyfriend. *coffBaschcoff*

I'm in a fairly good mood. Things have been quiet and I feel very safe and relaxed here. Reno's got me addicted to that 'pizza' stuff now. I can't get enough of it. How on earth did I never know about this before?

Pizza aside... I think that somebody possibly has a crush on me, and I don't know what to say or do about it. I can't really go to the old men for advice as they've forgotten what's it like to be young. >D

I don't have time for a love life. I don't want anybody to get hurt from it.

But I don't know how to tell this... um... person without breaking his/her heart.

{Friends/trusted employees only}

Mon, 03 Mar 2008 20:54:49 GMT

I'm just glad that tomorrow is our last day here. I thought we'd be safe in New York! But no, we're not. Somebody tried to run me over with a car controlled by some kind of remote! Thank god for Reno. I'd be dead were it not for him, and likely so would Basch. That's twice now Basch has nearly died because of me. When I find the idiot whose doing this... It won't be pretty. I'll kill them myself.

I feel so... I don't know. I don't know what to think. I don't want to consider how we were followed. The thought of...

I don't like this.

Kanda managed to drag something out of me, and I do feel a little better for it. I just hope nobody else finds out.